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I always hated writing. Writing papers, my university thesis, essays of any sort was always something I dreaded. I would most certainly procrastinate and avoid doing it till the very last second. It was 2010 when I first wanted to have my own blog and potentially a Youtube channel to share and discuss ideas with others on the web. What stopped me? Concern that no one would want to read my ramblings. Also I thought the Youtube market was saturated with too many channels. Oh boy, was I wrong!? Lastly, I hated writing. And most importantly, I believed I cannot write well and express myself with words. To this day, I still have that belief. And with time it got more and more correct as I avoided writing more.
Then I had a thought, where does the “reality” end and where does the “belief” start? Is what we believe always right? If I believed I cannot write good papers my entire life, does that make it a part of my identity? And how hard would it be to change that about myself or try to improve in any way? Do our beliefs have the potential to stop us from changing and getting better?
What if we stopped for a moment, sat down and thought about how we would finish the sentence “ I Am…”, or “ I Can… “ or “ I cannot…”. Is there something we can or cannot do, or something we believe we Are, that we would like to change? Is it even possible to improve?
There are many things I’d like to improve. Many things that have become a part of who I am. For example, the “Not being good at writing”. This belief has been haunting me for a very long time. It would almost cause physical pain and discomfort when I have to write something for school or work. Frankly I’m super tired of that. But the thought of picking up writing and learning how to write feels as if I’m going against myself and who I’ve been for such a long time.
Then I think of something I heard a while ago. If you want to start improving yourself, there is a long path ahead of you. But you can start with improving something that you are totally bad at, something that you dislike doing. With me that’s writing. Another example would be running. Oh I really hate running. How about improving those first?
So let’s pull out a piece of paper or a Word file and try to see what kind of picture you have of yourself in your mind. What are the beliefs you have about yourself? Are you happy with those beliefs? What would you improve and how much effort and time are you ready to invest to transform the way you view yourself?
At the end of the day, it’s not about what other people think of us, but what WE believe about ourselves that really matters. If our beliefs stop us from even trying to better ourselves, then being stuck is going to be our future. I choose to Write, no matter how bad it may turn out. What do you choose to start doing, despite your limiting beliefs, that would better your life in the future?